Falling in Love with Your Precise Combination of Personality Traits

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

"It’s like meeting the woman of your dreams, and then meeting her handsome husband on her back"

Dear you, spent a whole day make a warm conversation with you was the nicest day over three years of my life.

Meeting someone with that precise combination of personality traits who has almost all the qualities that I'm looking for in a partner who has beautiful eyes, mysterious and perfect person I’ve always fantasized about in my head.  And to top it all off, there’s a slight possibility that she's into you, as well as. I get start to talking and getting to know well each other, and I find myself slowly falling in love again with her after falling in love on the first sight. But there’s a catch that she has already a boyfriend. So do I carry the torch for? Let’s see. I may tell myself that I just want to be her best-friends, but I might start to wish and hope that she would leave her boyfriend for me. Not only is that unhealthy, but I could potentially end up hurting the person she is with and because bothering other relationship is not my style. 

Spend a night feel a slight twinge of pain in thinking that someone I'm really starting to like is off limits.

Then how to deal with liking someone who is already taken?

It's okay to like someone who’s already taken. It’s perfectly fine to admire the qualities of a woman, even if she’s already in a relationship with someone else. However, we (you guys include I whose like someone who's taken) have to keep in mind that we can only admire her/him from a distance. It's a lot of funny when I write "admire her/him from distance" but if you guys put yourself in my shoes you can feel the pain. She can’t be yours or at least she can’t be yours, unless she’s suddenly single.

So I take about a night to myself to do a few things that make me forget about the pain. I want to cry or rant to a few of my closest friends but I couldn't do that because I'm afraid of being more ashamed just because something that called love or chiefly love on first sight. I feel like I'm lose myself again after a few year. Feel like crap about the fact that I will never be like Ever and Damen. Writing countless sad and cheesy things on Instagram so she know how was my feeling. 

I do what I have to do for a night only. But at the end of that one night, I look back at all the nonsense I have put myself through and feel really ashamed. It's an alert that I still have a sensible adult in me. So I pick myself up and move on. Because my life is about so much more than some other human being who doesn’t want to love me again and because I'm exhausting about not loving back. 

And that is exactly what I do

I don't know how long I'm going to have to hang around for, proving my worth, and measuring my actions. I make a note to myself that someone better or different may come along and I don’t want to miss it when it happens. Even if my deep heart’s screaming at me to go and get her, yet I have to listen to what my conscience says too

Beyond wildest dream is possbile

Sunday, April 9, 2017




Hello, fellas! It’s me again. How’s life? I miss you so bad. Well, it’s almost a year that I never post anything in this site. Well, I am still have no job, I don’t mean that I am an unemployment even I am seek for a part time job right now. I have studied for my master degree for six months at Yogyakarta State University. If you keep asking me, how do you feel or what are you feeling? I have no answer. I will not tell you the porkie pie, stay tune on my web, I am sure you will learn something new about how the real friendship is, or how live alone without parent over six months is. I am gonna tell you everything what I experienced. When you reading my short story I have just finished my holiday. Yeah, back to my hometown, I already met many my best friends of mine and my lovely family. I have something to tell you, this is so embarrassed to admit. Well, it’s unspeakable secret that fallen in love with my old friend and I think it such a breadcrumbing again. But I don’t wanna tell it right now LOL.
Life begin on 2016 and everything has changed out of the blue. I know, I am swamped with my work soon.  It’s a white lie for me to keep on in this way. I have to study again for 2 years to get my master degree. Hold on fellas, don’t ever think that I have taken other major. I think I can’t do this anymore. I’m give up but I can’t. I just put my fate on God’s hand and let it flow. I’m sure everything will be outstanding. Even it’s kindda terrified and exhausted but it’s life. There is no something we can achieve if there is no obstacles to face. Make my life precious is one of my goals, because oneday when I'm growing old while success in my hand, sharing the precious story to people truly help and motivate them to keep strong and life the life.

Brainstorm Ideas

Monday, August 5, 2013

Dream A Little Dream

Katakanlah Awal Dari Perjuangan
Sulit untuk memulai dari mana atau bagaimana menulis prolog sebuah tulisan ini. Apakah dengan mengetik ulang semua kejadian-kejadian luar biasa yang telah kita lalui atau membayangkan kehidupan kedepan yang tidak semua orang tau. Tapi ini sepertinya ini prolog yang bagus untuk menjelaskan bagaimana sebuah umur dan berbagai pengalam indah akan selalu kita ingat. Di saat umur kita yang masih sangat belia ini, manfaatkanlah kekuatan, tekad dan semangat yang masih membara dalam diri kita. Ini merupakan sebuah moment atau kesempatan untuk membentuk sukses kita di masa depan kelak. Bagaimana kita ingin hidup dengan keberhasilan yang telah kita tanam sejak saat ini dan kita dapat memetik buahnya nanti saat kita sudah mencapai mimpi-mimpi yang telah kita buat.
            Kita harus membuat lompatan yang dahsyat dalam diri kita jika kita ingin sukses. Ini belum terlambat untuk memulai kembali. Tidak ada kata sia-sia atau percuma, yang ada bagaimana kita ingin benar-benar untuk meraih sukses tidak peduli seberapa sering kita terjatuh yang perlu kita ketahui kita harus bangkit kembali! Ingat selalu pengalaman saat kita benar-benar terjatuh, pengalaman terparah dari hidup kita. Jadikan itu sebuah
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Reduced To Tears

Dream A Little Dream

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Well I don’t really know where to start off this is by far the worst thing that has ever happened in my life. Early in September. I felt as if my life was in a rut. I woke up, went to collage, come home, homework and went to sleep. I never did anything different. Everyday I would wake up with a frown and think my life is colorful. I looked around my surroundings and realized that I am back to reality. When I fall asleep, I feel like I can escape and dream of something beautiful and I can feel awake! In reality, I am just another broken guy. This month, at times I am having troubles at campus  and home exactly as well. Everything is even worse but this time it is worse. I found out I had despression. My friend's statements everyday, it’s makes me hurt, it’s freaking me out and it’s makes me automatically cry. I walked to my room pretended that it didn’t effect me but it really did. I began to have a meltdown and continued crying. I wish I could become a fish and swim endlessly through the ocean, lost in my own thoughts and forget my problems. But I know every moment I get is a gift, moments of sorrow, moments of happiness, moments of downhearted. What my dad think about me isn’t important. What I think about myself means everything! Yes! Sometimes I have to put on a fake smile on to my father and just pretend it never happened, because I don’t want he yelling and grumbing at me anymore. And I know that being nice to someone I dislike doesn’t mean I am a fake! It means I am mature enough to tolerate my dislike towards him!
Here I am trying to hold back the tears that I am trying so hard not to spill in front of my friends. I had tried to stay strong, looks that I’m feel okay. As I feel to darkness sadness and silence the pain builds up the tears show up and I go down. I remember, September 2012, when I walked alone in the mid-night among the street lights while listening to the song that seems to exist with light breeze that brought me to heights. 
The downhearted, sadness and fake smile make this lonely ambiance. I can’t resist! And I tried forget all that problems for a while about my friend’s statements that  make my pressure’s on. And to let go is to be thankful for the experience that made me laugh, made me cry and made me grow up or made me too downhearted. I don’t know what going to happen next but I know that it’s not over yet.
God it’s me again praying that you take awat all my worries, problems and any illness and please watch over and bless me. Even though I may be hurting just know God has plan. Have faith and believe. I’II be stronger in the end.

Reduced to tears is an Idom. It means when someone or something reduces you to tears, they make you fell so unhappy that you cry

For Everlasting Happiness, There’s No Certainly For Anything

Monday, June 10, 2013



Dalam hidup tidak ada jaminan untuk terus bahagia, tidak ada kepastian untuk apapun. Setiap orang bisa terlempar keluar dari kotak rasa nyaman secara tiba-tiba. Kepergian mimpi itu merupakan pukulan untukku, tapi kepergiannya juga merupakan awal kehidupanku dengan hidup baruku. Tetapi terkadang dalam hidup kita tidak dihapakan pada pilihan, dalam hidup tidak ada jaminan untuk terus bahagia, seperti mimpi-mimpi itu yang bisa mendadak melayang jatuh tidak pernah kembali lagi ke hidup mereka. Tapi untukku waktu yang mematahkan mimpi-mimpiku dan waktu juga yang menyembuhkannya, untuk tidak menyerah.

“For everlasting happiness, there’s no certainly for anything. In this life, there’s no guarantee”

An Amazing Island

Saturday, April 20, 2013


I´m working with photography, beginning digital photography and I´m having so much fun with it and I can be creative with. Let me show you why, here you are some my photos.
My creative mind is constantly challenged on several levels and that´s just super fantastic and fun! Therefore creative photography is the essence of my courses!

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Am I On Cloud Nine? I Will


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Sometimes I can’t feel my happiness is coming to me. My haughtiness freaking me out and fine words butter no parsnips to avoid my haughtiness and maybe it makes me unlucky for something where I thought that I would reach my goals. Only when a whole year had passed, spent largely aimless and idle, and I found myself the last of my friends to still be jobless, did I realize that the problem lay in my attitude and this year I’m in bluff it out. Once again I cursed my bad luck, envious of the successes of my friends, successes that.  Yeah  it seems my bad attitude. Therefore, I lose the chance to bring about positive change in my lives, and cause the cycle to repeat again and again. I can’t change my attitude 100%, I need long time to make myself better, and I dont know what I have to called it,but those always cross out my mind to change my attitude. Well, I just think that my attitude isn’t bad at all, right? So I posted the strong mind-set “I’m lucky bird”. The realization that what I called luck was something I could make for myself radically changed my life. This simple shift in attitude is all it takes to break the cycle of bad luck. I will on cloud nine if I can reach my goals. Life is goes on everything happen to me.
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